Ch-ch-ch-changes!

 Well, THAT was certainly a MONTH!

Things have happened - mostly negative. I have taken down all my comics from Comicfury and for all intents and purposes have abandoned the one I left up, which is only there because I put so much work into it.

I've returned to making random art for random art sake, but have nowhere in particular to post it. Nevermind all the evil shit going on in the Real World, things are fucked up in my head right now. So, even though no one has really been reading this page, I'm gonna abandon it, too. Maybe I'll make a new one for my future projects, maybe I won't. 

Arrivaderci.

The Merry Go Round Broke Down.

 I don't know what it is - past trauma, the weather, my own broken brain, a combo thereof... whatever it is, at least once a year I get into that headspace that says "STOP MAKING COMICS".

I assume that the weather may have something to do with it, as spring has sprung here in the Pacific Northwest and the tree jizz, cold winds, hot sun and Mother Nature's inability to make up her damned mind whether to be warm and sunny, cold and rainy or dry, yet grey is really weighing on me. AGAIN.

Zed summed it up for me a couple of years back:

Well, after "The Incident" last week on the ComicFury forums (My suspension has been lifted, btw, yet I can hardly muster the excitement to really give a damn) and the ongoing 30 Days of Characters 2025 event where participants make up new characters or update old ones every day for the month of April - which, this year isn't garnering much feedback and/or engagement for me - I m getting a bit downhearted about my participation in ComicFury and in online comics in general. Unfortunately for me, it is my life.

Like, literally, it's prettymuch all I do and 88% of my engagement with the world, these days.

Comicking is as close to smoking, drinking or drugs as I have ever gotten. (Thank God)  'Cept maybe ages 27 to 29 when I was boozin' it up, but that stopped cold turkey without much fanfare or even effort.

Comicking? It IS my addiction.

This is part of the problem, as I have WAY too many comic projects and characters and worlds and universes inside my head that I feel I HAVE to get out - but I have relatively little focus, older, diminishing art supplies, no real grasp of modern art tech, no help and as stated, my..."GUSTO" waxes and wanes like the moon! Hell, for all I know, The Moon itself may be having an effect on me. I dunno!

What I DO know is that while SOME things have been going positively lately - Getting an iPad from friends. Procreate being very cheap. Finally reinitializing the bank account that I lost when I was in the hospital last year... On the other side of the coin, I find myself way too scattered to concentrate on one property.

It's been going this way for YEARS. I don't know what to do.

My PLAN, however, is to re-connect my new bank account to my lingering paywall-type accounts like Patreon and Ko-Fi, make most if not all of my newer stuff going forward adult-oriented. Not just in the tits and ass way, either. I'm a 'comedy guy', but no one seems to care about 'funny' anymore. They all want violence, body horror, drug use and, yes, good ol' tits and ass. Maybe I should finally break down and oblige them. 

We'll see what's what down the line, but one way or another, I may just have to ditch ComicFury, The Duck and any other Comics Platform I may still be a part of and post any new works for public consumption to THIS page or - UGH - Social Media Accounts.

My Ego

 This has been a good week for boosting my ego.

Not only the encounter with the gent who wanted me to draw him a helicopter, but just now - again, while sitting in my local coffee shop and scribbling, I've had one of the proprietors mention that they are going to clear wallspace and post artwork, and he came to me first! Soonafter, a patron noted my scribbling and asked to see. He liked it a lot. Then, I went for more coffee and ANOTHER of the shop's runners made sure to reaffirm that I'd be willing to contribute!

I feel great! And somewhat over-caffeinated, but that's not a bad thing in my case!

I used the hundred bucks that the aforementioned patron paid me for the helicopter to pay outstanding debt on my old bank account that got shut down when I was in the hospital last year. I applied for a new account and card, which should be arriving in the mail very soon. Once that happens, I can reopen my Patreon and Ko-Fi accounts.

I believe that it is for sure time for me to get back into doing commissions and trying to spread myself around! Next order of biz is to pick out wall-worthy art and touch it up with every art supply that I have at my disposal for posting on the walls of the coffeeshop. I am also thinking of generating 2 donate-only comics. One family friendly and one NSFW, both to draw attention to my Patreon.

I may have to put free/ComicFury stuff on the backburner until maybe next year, if that happens. I'll suss that out later. Right now, I am riding high on the mere thought that SOMEBODY likes what I do!