The Merry Go Round Broke Down.

 I don't know what it is - past trauma, the weather, my own broken brain, a combo thereof... whatever it is, at least once a year I get into that headspace that says "STOP MAKING COMICS".

I assume that the weather may have something to do with it, as spring has sprung here in the Pacific Northwest and the tree jizz, cold winds, hot sun and Mother Nature's inability to make up her damned mind whether to be warm and sunny, cold and rainy or dry, yet grey is really weighing on me. AGAIN.

Zed summed it up for me a couple of years back:

Well, after "The Incident" last week on the ComicFury forums (My suspension has been lifted, btw, yet I can hardly muster the excitement to really give a damn) and the ongoing 30 Days of Characters 2025 event where participants make up new characters or update old ones every day for the month of April - which, this year isn't garnering much feedback and/or engagement for me - I m getting a bit downhearted about my participation in ComicFury and in online comics in general. Unfortunately for me, it is my life.

Like, literally, it's prettymuch all I do and 88% of my engagement with the world, these days.

Comicking is as close to smoking, drinking or drugs as I have ever gotten. (Thank God)  'Cept maybe ages 27 to 29 when I was boozin' it up, but that stopped cold turkey without much fanfare or even effort.

Comicking? It IS my addiction.

This is part of the problem, as I have WAY too many comic projects and characters and worlds and universes inside my head that I feel I HAVE to get out - but I have relatively little focus, older, diminishing art supplies, no real grasp of modern art tech, no help and as stated, my..."GUSTO" waxes and wanes like the moon! Hell, for all I know, The Moon itself may be having an effect on me. I dunno!

What I DO know is that while SOME things have been going positively lately - Getting an iPad from friends. Procreate being very cheap. Finally reinitializing the bank account that I lost when I was in the hospital last year... On the other side of the coin, I find myself way too scattered to concentrate on one property.

It's been going this way for YEARS. I don't know what to do.

My PLAN, however, is to re-connect my new bank account to my lingering paywall-type accounts like Patreon and Ko-Fi, make most if not all of my newer stuff going forward adult-oriented. Not just in the tits and ass way, either. I'm a 'comedy guy', but no one seems to care about 'funny' anymore. They all want violence, body horror, drug use and, yes, good ol' tits and ass. Maybe I should finally break down and oblige them. 

We'll see what's what down the line, but one way or another, I may just have to ditch ComicFury, The Duck and any other Comics Platform I may still be a part of and post any new works for public consumption to THIS page or - UGH - Social Media Accounts.