-- Here we go again!!
After April's 30 Days of OC's event over at Comicfury (which I didn't finish, unfortunately) my art mojo kinda fizzled out a bit. For the last 2 weeks or so, I have been dry as far as new ideas or even ideas for (and the will to) moving forward with the comics I have going... so, I've decided to stop. Temporarily. Sorta.
So, about a year or so ago, before I went into the hospital, the external harddrive which housed about 8 and a half solid years of my drawings, ideas, storylines, world-building and personal pictures and writings malfunctioned. It may be salvageable, but I am not one for blind optimism. That said, I have been working on consolidating whatever I have left and can find strewn all over the internet from the last 3 decades into a personal Discord Server.
I have made a LOT of comics, posters, pin-ups, T-shirt designs, and icons, apparently. Like, A LOT. Anyway, that said, it really hasn't helped me buckle down on my comics any. If anything, it has made things worse, considering how much output I've put out and have really gotten nowhere. Due to this - and the semiannual seasonal depression - I have been slowly taking my comics down from ComicFury as I collect them. I may have to buckle down and do the same with The Duck at some point. At least until I can come up with an idea that I can stick with.
One of my main malfunctions is that I almost never completely ditch an idea - or even a character - once they are cemented in my head a certain way. That's one of the reasons that I created Tiamat 2 or three years ago.
Yes, THAT Tiamat - the 5 headed dragon goddess of destruction and creation.
I made her specifically for the purpose of destroying any comics I was DONE with, from the ijnside and ON PANEL so that I could trick my own broken brain into letting them lie permanently.
So far, she has
eaten destroyed a fair few of my old projects.
But, of course - me being ME - I still left a back door or two for cherry-picked favorites from the comics because I am BROKEN.
Anyway, once I am done taking down MOST if not all of my comics from ComicFury and The Duck, it's a matter of choosing and/or creating a NEW project to concentrate on, which has always been my problem. An embarrassment of riches when it comes to ideas and characters but dwindling energy and focus, no help and all-but-non-existent outside interest, engagement and feedback to keep me going.
Not do be cynical, but it seems these days that if One's comics aren't all about zeppelin-tits and free-flowing bodily fluids, no one seems to care.
Mind you, I draw my share of big boobs and the occasional naked cock, but I've never been much of a "Porn" guy.
In the last 2 or 3 years, I have made it a POINT to draw a bit more gratuitous nudity in my works, mainly out of spite that of all the 'Questionable Content' in comics - hell, MOST every kind of media content - nudity seems to be considered the worst sin by the gatekeepers, critics and even a lot of the creators. Hyperviolence, profanity, gore, racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, deliberately incendiary social politics, general EdgeLordery? All that is good wholesome family fun to some of these maniacs, but God Forbid there be nipples! I don't understand or agree with that philosophy, but still I am not the "gallons of jizz"/"bimbofication"/Insert raunchy fetish for raunchyness' sake here" type of guy.
At best, sex is funny to me and I portray it thusly in my works. But, if it's not some bizarre fetish/borderline assault/abuse thing, I guess it's too "boring" for the masses.
I'll think of something, but until I do, I think that this site MAY be the only place I'll be posting comics and such for a while until I can cull all my old stuff from the hosting sites.
